hiax.. sorry for not posting.. i am too busy with life i guess?
as usual it has been hectic.. i am stressed out.. END OF YEARS ARE HERE!!!
help me!!!
and i just got an injury on the wrist although i can still type this post and write..
but this a post of pain..while i am typing i feel like my wrist is about to fall apart..
i am going to see a chinese sinseh..
thank goodness.. i thought no one is going to bring to see a doctor.
maybe my hand is going to rot..
oh well..
i am very tired of my life.. i want my EOY's to end soon..
so i can truly go crazy all i like...
i feel tied down by stress and i am going to die of it..
Please help me..
Someone.. ANYONE!!!
well.. i have to study so gotta keep this post really short i guess...
tag before you leave... :)

i am soory if i was being emo in sch or just being mean and straightforward.. i am just depressed recently and i am really stress.. i tend to forget myself when i am stress. i am soory my friends.. if i hurt your feelings i am sorry.. i think i am just going through a difficult month.. you know what month this is and those who know my condition please try to understand.. its really bugging me about this month things that goes around.. i hate it..
I am having mood swings recently and you can see that if your in my class.. one moment i am cranky the other i am totally depressed.. please don't keep things from me.. i know you all have secrets. that i won't probe but just say i am paranoid but i always feel that someone is talking about me.. its not something good either.. maybe its just about my sucky attiude? i don't know but if anyone of you don't like it, just tell me and remind me i am being too angry or having mood swings on the wrong people.. i don't know.. do anything but don't talk about me behind my back.. i can't stop what anyone says.. but if there is a prob with me please tell me and not gossip about me..i know i am being paranoid but i am in depression right now so i am sorry about all this stupid attitude of mine and i will try to go back to normal...

haix.. i think i am losing it.. overpowered by this stupid life.. it just sucks.. i mena seriously.. why do u make stupid comments, bug my life, become part of my conversation topic, and act like the world revolves around u? i hate it.. i hate my life as a matter of fact.. my life isn't about listening to stupid comments.. my life is already sufferable ok... ok.. i am getting all emo.. i feel lyk telling you everything.. but all u do is to act as if u dun evn care.. my feelings jus get kept inside.. bottled up and unwanted.. well.. the glass that keeps my feelings are fragile you know.. it will break.. and it is about to break.. i am certain about this.. why am i to suffer this pain? i hate it.. i want to scream.. and i don't believe love exist.. sorry to those who are currently in "love".. because love don't last.. what's with the 'i love u'... dun get all lovey dovey just yet.. ok.. i am just depressed so don't come and get all worked up with me if u read this post.. i am just venting my anger and frustration on the keyboard cos no one cares.. so i have to tell something... so i guess it all ends up on the blog ok..i feel like killing myself? i don't know how i feel.. its like so numb inside... i think i am crazy.. give me some peace will ya..

haix.. i am sorry for not posting.. but i have soooo much test to study... ahhh.. i am going mad.. why has my life turn out this way??? i can't handle the stress already.. my health to my knowledge, is failing.. haix..

life is so terrible..

i feel like breaking down.. why do i have to get myself in this MESS?!

jus wasting time and life away? what has become of me??? in a mess..
it feels lyk i am choking on the inside and the hectic lifestyle has got the better of me..
i can't control it neither can i hold on to opportunities.. they keep slipping away..
and everyday i have to tell myself to get a grip of myself.. i am tired.. tired of having no fun in life..i wanna slack.. but part of me holds me back.. i am failing my test.. this can't be happening..
nooooo.... i must pass.. this will be my goal.. i shall beat him.. muhahaha...

posting. again.. still rushing hw.. but the more i rush the more homework seems to be undone...haix..got so many plans for the holidays but have to do homework first.. sad.. anyway.. tml have to go chiong homework again.. i have to do homework so that i can go out with my sis to play at frined's house, hang out with primary school friends... and more... so much plans so little time...haix.. onward ahead!!! stress... left chinese hw, which is gonna be completed tml, english newspaper article, and thank god that i have completed my maths homework, with thankies to estelle of course..now to relax till tml where i have to rush my homework again.. haix.. blog till here..g2g..

back to posting.. sec three camp is over and we just found a new couple in the class.. i shall nt name who but i guess almost everyone knows that already.. its world news. i am so happy for them.. cos that girl is one of my closest friends.. feel their love people..haha.. recently i have been busy rushing homework and i made two new friends.. one of them is from my sis church.. the other is his friend.. anyway.. i went breakfast with my sis and both of them.. they are so funny.. we went to the nearby playground to play swing.. end up we were drenched in the rain.. it was fun.. haha.. my sis went a little crazy though...now i am jus sitting around with my maths homework all over the table.. trying to complete it by today.. i think its possible.. i am juz happy that i only left chinese homework, 10 english newspaper article, reading storybook and all the projects.. when are we going to do those projects?

I am so afraid we can't complete it though i know its just the start of the holidays.. haix.. i am crazy about hw.. going out with hw buddy to finish my hw soon...

today got dance.. but i can only watch not dance.. haix i am so sad.. feel so sien.. why mus i be born wif tis pair of stoopid legs.. haix.. i must get better.. today was a lil crazy.. lei yi, wei zhen, jia yi, sebas and i were kinda getting a lil high during the inter-class competition.. we were lyk cheering lyk mad.. ok.. practically screaming all the while though.. was happy.. lei yi got a dizzy spell so she had to rest.. at least she is fine now.. take care of urself lei yi.. we had nothing to do in class today and were making a din of a noise in every lesson.. so sad mr lee's last day today.. he is really a good teacher.. i am glad to let him teach me.. hope he comes back to visit us..i am going to post till here.. nth much to say..